Christmas and Beyond

Your friend Allyson reminds me of Madeline. On a whim, i was searching for memorable quotes from the animated series and saw this one though it hardly fits into the context of the photo:

“What could be worse?’ ‘What could be worse?’ ‘What could be worse?’ ‘A BAD BAD HAT!”

By moving, do you mean… leaving for Thailand for a while and then coming back not to the big house (with cats and friends), but to someplace entirely new? Like a new state or apartment?

I was reading through Allyson’s post on blogging (Why do we blog?) and i think she might be right. It’s a little cathartic to reassess my thoughts and type them out someplace in smooth, clear sentences for everyone else to read. I feel like so much of what goes on in my head (big, small, mundane) is left unsaid but by parsing what’s on my mind and logging that onto the computer… It’s like having my own personal Pensieve. A place where i can go back to later and nose around. Study my emotions, irrationality and my goals + objectives.

But to credit Allyson, it has just as much to do with my attempt to give my life some meaning & little validation. That having others comment on and approve of the choices i make can make me feel like i’m apart of something larger. So i’m not alone in my decisions or without moral guidance by a small audience.

I think internet posterity might have a little to do with it as well because… if i die tomorrow, i guess the only thing i have to leave behind (and i’ve got so very little) are these thoughts, these feelings and this perspective. If someone can read that and empathize with their own situation drawing parallels between them both, that’s all i really care about. It might help, it might hurt but at the end of the day, at least it was honest.

Please promise me you won’t loose touch when you go galavanting off across the world. I would miss you and your posts too much.

That mug is adorable. I hope you had a fun time on NYE! Sounds like you did…